T minus 14 hours......

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When you spend 6-7 days/week with someone, it makes it that much harder when they go out of town. Lamby is in Tampa right now and I miss him ALOT! He left last Friday and won't be back until early Sunday morning. I'm so happy for him that he was able to take the time off and go have fun with people he hasn't seen in over a year, but the "it's all about me" side of me thinks it SUCKS!

T minus 55 hours..........

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If I could live inside his head for just one day I might understand 10% of what he thinks. Giving me a birthday card with Bears tix in it, "in hopes that it could be our first date to possibly get back together" is just about the MOST ridiculous thing I've ever heard. No, i thought about it, and it definitely IS the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard! It's been a week and I still can barely recognize that it actually happened. I gave the tickets back yesterday and he actually had the balls to be pissed at me! I just wanted to shake him and say "what the fuck, man?!" I mean, seriously, get yourself back on the Zoloft (or something stronger) and go to therapy already!

I should really be sending him a Thank You card for helping me see the light....that my relationship with him was never something healthy for me. I can't put into words how VERY happy I am these days! I am more confident than ever in who I am, more focused, more calm and easy-going, more fun-loving, etc. And to top it all off, I am in LOVE with Lamby! Yes, that's right, I used the "L" word.......

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